A Season Ends

Today is moving day.

Today Bernardo leaves us. It's hard to believe he has been with us for seven months. My stomach is queasy and my body shakey. Questions of my own failure with Bernardo pervade in my mind. Is it the right thing that he is leaving? What could I have done differently to prevent this. It is so painful to see him go. My heart aches for this person nearly my own age who has never known love. Why was he dealt this hand in life? Why is it so hard to change? Why can't i bring myself to try one more time. Will he run and go back to Mexico? Will he face his own demons in this country? Will he ever believe that a family loved him?

I don't know.

This is a sad day. This is a painful moment.